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About Cindy

I am a city girl turned country girl. I moved to the country for my first teaching job and 32 years later I am still here. My husband and I are blessed to have a son and a daughter and son-in-law AND we have two "granddogs" who we love to spoil.

Day 28: While

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“In my time of need, I called to the Eternal; I begged my True God for help. He heard my voice echo up to His temple, and my cry came to His ears.” Psalm 18:6 (The Voice)

Day 28: While

It’s no secret that I love birds and enjoy feeding and photographing them. I start almost every day with coffee, sitting in my chair, watching out the window as the birds partake of their morning feast. That is, until this summer. Something strange happened and I didn’t like it one bit!

Grackles (in the blackbird family) swooped in and landed on the grass under my “bird cafe.”

Fewer and fewer of my regular visitors came to the feeders as more and more grackles arrived. As the number of grackles grew, the fewer finches, titmice, nuthatches, and cardinals stopped in. Pretty soon the lawn appeared black as the flock of grackles daily foraged on it. I’m talking 25-30 boisterous birds. Much to my dismay, they seemed content to stay despite my efforts to discourage them and soon the little feathered friends I love disappeared from my feeders all together. 

Finally, it became apparent that to prompt the interlopers to move on I’d just have to stop filling the feeders, and so I did.  It took several days for them to clean up all that had fallen to the ground below, but eventually they finally moved on. I was overjoyed until……the familiar little birds didn’t come back. I waited expectantly as time passed but they still didn’t return. I. Was. Heartbroken.

What’s a bird brain like me to do when hers are missing? I prayed. Yes, I know it’s silly and I even told God I knew He had more important things to worry about. But I prayed for “my birds” to return anyway. Anyone else pray for goofy things?

Once in a while something happens that fills me with such awe that it overflows from my heart and down my cheeks. The very next day after my plea to God, I looked out the window and couldn’t believe my eyes! (Although I should have.) Scurrying head first down a tree branch toward the waiting sunflower seeds was a nuthatch, my favorite of all the birds! After weeks of their absence, but not even 24 hours after I prayed, God sent me a message through a little gray and white bird. “I hear you,” He said, and I cried.

You see, I’d already been struggling and wondering if my voice mattered to God at all. Maybe you’ve wondered too. A silly prayer and the gift of a bird’s return reassure me it does. They’ve also given me confidence to believe that those BIG things I’ve been praying for have been heard, too and that God is working them out in His time and in His way just like He did at my bird  feeders.

“Don’t be anxious about things; instead, pray. Pray about everything. He longs to hear your requests, so talk to God about your needs and be thankful for what has come.”
Philippians 4:6 (The Voice, emphasis mine)

When it comes to our prayers, big or seemingly insignificant, what a comfort Paul offers us to know God “longs to hear” them all! Now, we need to watch with expectation for what comes. And when it does, whether in years or hours, we can join in with the Psalmist with thanksgiving and proclaim:

“But surely God has heard me; He has paid attention to the urgency of my request.
Mat the True God be blessed, for He did not turn away from my prayer
nor did He hold back His loyal love from me.”
Psalm 66:19-20 (The Voice)

Day 27: Hidden

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“I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in his holy people.”

Day 27: Hidden

One of my favorite things to do while visiting my sister at her lake house is taking a pontoon ride. Cruising along the shore line I like looking at all the homes and the changes that have been made since my last trip. I can count on the “captain” of the boat to race through a flock of floating seagulls, who then scatter in every direction including dangerously, directly over my head, which of course is the point. I love the laughs, stories, and reminiscing that happen on those little voyages. 

On this summer’s boat ride there was even more to enjoy as the lake was full of wild life. We saw turtles sunning themselves on a rock, a blue heron poised in the tall grass, and ducks standing on their heads like Olympic gymnasts. Then, just as we turned into a small cove something caught my eye in the overgrowth on shore. Quickly asking to stop, the rest of my fellow passengers doubted my sighting, but confident I lifted my camera, focused in, and snapped the picture. What it revealed was that hidden behind leaves, stems, and sticks was a bird I’d never seen before, the Green Heron pictured here. My mom turned to me and said, “How did you ever see that?”

I can’t really explain it, but I’ve always been overly observant, taking in minute details around me. But since I’ve been looking at the world through a lens, it seems that sense has become enhanced and I see even more than I did before. A color, shape, texture, the light, the shadows, or something I can’t really define draws my attention and a picture forms in my mind.

Oh, if I could only see as clearly with my spiritual eyes! Unfortunately, the questions Jesus asked his disciples when things weren’t making sense to them could be asked of me too. Maybe you can relate.

“You have eyes-can’t you see? You have ears-can’t you hear?
Don’t you remember anything at all?”
Mark 8:18 (NLT)

Jesus wasn’t hidden from the twelve. They looked into the color of His eyes, knew the shape of His chin, the texture of His robe, and experienced the Light that overcomes the shadows. Something they couldn’t define drew their attention to Jesus and yet, they couldn’t see the whole picture of who He was and why He’d come.

Why is it, if you’re like me, that when life falls apart and doesn’t make sense it’s as if we become blinded by fear, worry, grief, anger, and so much more? We have eyes but cannot see. And we have a difficult time remembering what we know to be true about Jesus.

When things are challenging, I want to see. In the midst of storms, I want to see. Surrounded by doubters, I want to see. If my future seems uncertain, I want to see. But, how in the midst of the tangles of life, how can we ever see? That’s when we need to do exactly what the sightless men along the road Jesus was on did, cry out to Him to get our vision back.

“When Jesus heard them, he stopped and called, ‘What do you want me to do for you?’ ‘Lord,’ they said, ‘we want to see!’ Jesus felt sorry for them and touched their eyes. Instantly they could see! Then they followed him.”
Matthew 20:32-34 (NLT emphasis mine)

Capturing that unexpected photo has reminded me that Jesus isn’t hidden from me like a bird in the brush, or from you either. He is made known in God’s Word so that we can perceive every minute detail about Him. We’re assured about how much He loves us, promised that He is trustworthy, and that His plan for us is better than we could ever picture ourselves.

So, how can we have eyes that see? By focusing on the only One who will let us behold more than we have ever imagined. As we follow Jesus, what once seemed hidden, will one day be revealed and it will be something we’ve never seen before.

This is what the Scriptures mean when they say, ‘No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him.’”
1 Corinthians 2:9 (NLT)

Days 24/25/26: Concrete, Know, Dream

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“Truly my soul finds rest in God; my salvation comes from him. Truly he is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.” Psalm 62:1-2

Days 24/25/26: Concrete, Know, Dream

Taking this picture remains as real to me now as it did then. It was the very moment I knew that the dream of our new home was really coming true. That completed concrete block foundation represented so many things to me: plans accomplished, hopes realized, and a promise for our future.

There was a wait time of course, before the house could be placed on the understructure. The builders explained that the cement had to dry, harden, and season for maximum stability. Though I was anxious for it to be placed upon it, I knew having a solid foundation was vital for a house to stand. 

I’ve been thinking about foundations a lot lately, not concrete ones but spiritual ones. My small, rural, country church is struggling.  The pandemic battered our finances and having few members we are challenged to recover. Hard discussions have been had. Words we never thought would be, have had to be said. Winds of change are buffeting our church family and we’re desperately trying to withstand it all. 

Grief, frustration, fear, shock, and so many emotions assail us as we hang on the best we can through this storm. As often happens to me, a song, or more accurately a “God-wink,” has come at just the right time and I’m clinging to the lyrics:

“If the Lord builds the house
Nobody can tear it down
When it’s build on His name
There’s nothing gonna shake this ground
If the Lord builds the house
Nobody can tear it down.

The bricks may be weathered
Through storm and through fire
But what God holds together
It stands firm every time.”
If the Lord Builds the House by Hope Darst

I’ve been singing these words over and over as a way to remind myself that God has built His house, the church and while in the future ours may not look like what we’ve always known, it will “stand firm” because God’s the One holding it. 

“Together, we are his house, built on the foundation of the apostles and the prophets. And the cornerstone is Christ Jesus himself. We are carefully joined together in him, becoming a holy temple for the Lord.” Ephesians 2:20-21 (NLT)

As Christians we know we’re going to face many storms that threaten to threaten our very foundations, individually and as a church. The truth is, that what we’ve tried to build on our own may be destroyed; but what a comfort to know that what’s built on the solid foundation of Christ will stand firm every time. His plans for us will be accomplished. Our hopes in Him will be realized. And His promise for our future? Unshakeable!

“Cause my life is anchored
On this solid truth
That whatever God’s building
No, it can’t be moved.”

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Day 21: Testimony

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“May the Lord lead your hearts into a full understanding and expression of the love of God and the patient endurance that comes from Christ.” 2 Thessalonians 3:5 (NLT)

Day 21: Testimony

As a teacher, I spent my career taking the broad, complicated goals given to us by the state and breaking them down into more basic, doable parts so that my students could learn step by step, building confidence until they could demonstrate mastery of a skill that at one time seemed overwhelming.  

As adults, we face complicated goals to conquer, too. The most important to me these days, is to live so that my life is a testimony to others. We’ve been given all the standards we need to be successful in God’s Word, but I’m going to be honest with you, like my Second Graders I’ve found myself overwhelmed by the voluminous, complex lessons and instructions within the Bible. Have you ever been there? Our desire is great but our confidence wavers. That’s why we need the Teacher.

“Teacher, which is the most important commandment in the law of Moses?” Jesus replied, ‘You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, and all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. A second is equally important: Love your neighbor a yourself.’” Matthew 22:37-39 (NLT)

“So now I am giving you a new commandment: Love each other. Just as I have loved you, you should love each other. Your love for one another will prove to the world that you are my disciples.” John 13:34-35 (NLT)

Jesus breaks living our lives as a Godly testimony down into basic, doable parts: Love God, Love others.

When our hearts, minds, and souls are focused on loving God, we begin to try to understand and live out those complex lessons and instructions in the Bible and in so doing that, our lives will bear evidence of that Godly love. Putting others above ourselves, loving them as Jesus loves us will also be a profession of our faith without us having to say a word. 

Is it easy? No. Can we do it on our own? Of course not. But, when we put our confidence in Christ and not ourselves, step by step our lives will demonstrate and express the love the world so desperately needs.  I don’t think it’s a skill we will master in this life but it’s one that we’ll get better at as we put love into practice. 

Love God. Love others. This is our life testimony!

Day 18: Little

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“Now may the Lord of peace himself give you peace at all times and in every way. The Lord be with all of you.”
2 Thessalonians 3:16 (NIV)

Day 18: Little

Not long ago, on a fall get-away and a whim, we turned into the parking lot of the “Smallest Church in 48 States.” Stepping into the tiny sanctuary, such a sense of God’s presence immediately permeated my soul. There was a reverent silence within those walls. Soft light filtered through the stained glass windows creating a red glow that flowed across the floor at the alter beneath the cross. A coincidence? I think not. Sitting in a miniature pew I felt God’s peace saturate all of that little space. 

Experiencing God’s presence and peace in my “normal-sized” church happens regularly. Standing in the shadow of a large mountain, at the edge of the vast ocean, or amongst a sweeping forest, I expect to sense God there in the midst of his grand design. But, in a roadside attraction touting its small size? Encountering our BIG God there, took me by surprise.

I’m afraid I’ve been shortsighted in the same way before. When going through major happenings in life (many that throw us for a loop) I take those big cares right to God. After all, He is the no height, width, breadth, depth, east from west God! But, when it comes to little things? I’ve questioned whether our omniscient, omnipotent God has time for those. Things like my lost keys, a stomach ache, vacation plans, missing birds from my feeders, car trouble, or a multitude of other minute details. Maybe you’ve wondered too? Here’s what I’m learning:

“Do not be anxious about anything; but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.”
Philippians 4:6 (NIV emphasis mine)

Did you catch that? Paul teaches us not to worry, and I’m going to add not to wonder, about anything. And he says, instead take everything, tremendous and tiny, to God in prayer. Isn’t that amazing? We expect God to listen to our monumental needs, but our little ones? That can take us by surprise. But, when we think about it, it really shouldn’t because after all, Jesus came as a little baby, He compared faith with a grain of mustard seed, fed the five thousand with meager loaves and fish, and used a widow and her two small mites as an example of commendable giving. He is the last is first, poor is rich, least is great, God! And it doesn’t stop there:

“And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
Philippians 4:7 (NIV)

I love how God works? My experience with Him in the “Smallest Church in 48 States” has reminded me, and I hope you too, that He meets us anywhere about anything. Big or little, God invites us to turn to Him not on a whim, but in prayer and thanksgiving. And when we step into His presence? We will feel God’s peace saturate every little space of our being. 

 

Day 17: Together

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“Let us think of ways to motivate one another to acts of love and good works. And let us not neglect our meeting together,” Hebrews 10:24-25a (NLT)

Day 17: Together

As an introvert, I don’t mind being by myself. Actually, I enjoy it. But…there are times that I also crave to be together with those I love and care about. There’s really nothing more precious than family gathered around the table, friends huddled next to a campfire, brothers and sisters in Christ raising their voices as one in praise, or co-workers joining to solve a problem. Some of my favorite memories are times of togetherness.

“Two people are better off than one, for they can help each other succeed.”
Ecclesiastes 4:9 (NLT)

King Solomon’s wisdom in the Old Testament still holds true today. Recently I’ve been going through a book to learn more about a skill I’m interested in and my friend Jane kindly offered to read along with me. We meet weekly to discuss what we’ve gleaned from the pages. Now, I could have done it all on my own. But… this is what I know about myself: most likely I would have procrastinated and put off reading to the end or rushed through to get done and missed some important points. The offer to go through the book together held me accountable, enhanced what I got out of the content, and made it fun to complete. Jane has helped me succeed.

Ecclesiastes 4 goes on to say that together, there’s always a helping hand to lift one another up and it reminds us how much easier it is to feel warm and comfortable when we are side by side. And isn’t that the case with us? On our own, this world can be a cold place offering us much to fall prey to. But….together…

“A person standing alone can be attacked and defeated, but two can stand back-to-back and conquer. Three are even better, for a triple-braided cord is not easily broken.”
Ecclesiastes 4:12 (NLT)

Whether it’s the love of family, support of friends, prayers of our church, solutions from those we work with, or yes, even a book buddy, face to face or “back-to-back,” being together improves our good times and bad. But…adding One more makes everything better!

Day 16: Delight

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“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come. The old has gone, the new is here!” 2 Corinthians 5:17

Day 16: Delight

It’s “leaf peeper” season here in the mountains and that’s just what I’ve been doing. What a most delightful day just sitting outside and “peeping” at the leaves. Golden yellow, bright orange, and deep red are replacing the green of just a few weeks ago.

Did you know (I was just reminded thanks to my very smart hubby) that the bold fall colors now adorning the trees are always present in the leaves? It’s only when the green producing chlorophyl begins to break down because of shorter days and colder temperatures, that the green fades giving way to the vivid autumn shades hidden within.

Did you also know that our true colors are waiting to be revealed too? We can be a little “green around the edges” in life thinking we can hang on in the world by our own effort, that we know  all we need to get by, or that this is as good as it gets and that’s enough for us. This way of life is bitter and short!

“You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.”
Ephesians 4:22-24 (NIV)

Just as chlorophyl deteriorates to expose the brilliance within, so must our “old self ” fade away. When we accept a life in Christ, His bold, bright light shines in and through us, revealing what God knew was there all the time. 

As in nature, showing our true colors is a process but, day by day, season by season, we will begin to look different to those who take a “peep.” Christ’s bright light and a bold love will show through. And when God looks upon us?

“For the Lord takes delight in his people;”
Psalm 149:4a (NIV)

Day 12: Born

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“So each generation should set its hope anew on God, not forgetting his glorious miracles and obeying his commands.” Psalm 78:7 (NLT)

Day 12: Born

Since I was born up until now, there have been a lot of changes in the world. I could list many things that I used everyday growing up that are now obsolete and have been replaced by new technology. But, even with all the advancements I’ve experienced in 63 years, I don’t think it compares with what my grandparents’ generation witnessed! 

Stop and think about it. Those born in the early 1900’s as my grandparents were, went from no electricity to automated everything, horse powered transportation to space travel, and limited communication to access to the world. 

My grandpa used to like to tell stories about what it was like during his growing up years. It was important to him to share his life experience. We knew that with each visit there’d be tales of the “olden days.” I wish I would have listened more carefully back then, as I’m sure I missed out on much wisdom that I could sure use now. What I did come to realize through those tales though, was when my grandpa was little he couldn’t even imagine the things that were now normal life to him as an adult. No one in his generation would have guessed how drastically life would change. It’s not the same for us. I don’t really think that we’d be surprised by anything that may be developed today: life under the sea or on the moon, flying cars, robots, you get the idea. We CAN conceive the things to come.

Being able to picture the future isn’t always a good thing. Along with creating advancements to make our lives easier, we’ve also created a world that has become more challenging and it sometimes feels like things just keep getting worse and worse. I don’t know about you, but I worry about what my grandchildren will face in their future and often, I don’t want to try to envision it at all.

That’s why we need to be like my grandpa and make sharing stories of Life with those around us a priority. 

“I will praise your mighty deeds, O Sovereign LORD. I will tell everyone that you alone are just. O God, you have taught me from my earliest childhood, and I constantly tell others about the wonderful things you do. Now that I am old and gray, do not abandon me, O God. Let me proclaim your power to this new generation, your mighty miracles to all who come after me.”
Psalm 71:16-18 (NLT)

Grandpa’s stories taught us about the past and how far things have come. God’s stories reassure each of us we’re not alone right where we are and share the good news about where we’re going. Experiencing life with God through the good times and bad teach us what we need as we grow in Him. The prayer of the Psalmist should be ours too: “Let me proclaim your power to this new generation.” Those are exactly the stories we should feel are most important to tell our children, their children, and all those who come after us. And if like younger me, they don’t listen carefully? Well then, we tell them again; because hearing wisdom born of God now, makes life better than we ever imagined!

PS My grandpa is the boy to the far right. This family photo was taken in Aug. 1920.

Days 10/11: Between and Idea

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“Then Jesus said to his disciples, ‘Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me.'” Matthew 16:24 (NIV)

Days 10/11: Between and Idea

We spent this weekend visiting family. It’s always hard to leave and today was no different. Traveling toward home we reminisced about the fun we’d had, planned for the week ahead, and enjoyed the beautiful scenery passing by outside the window. When we pulled away this morning our intention was to make the four hour trip straight through to home with only a short stop for a bite to eat, but about midway I was asked to think about altering our route.

I’ve written before of my dislike for change. Big changes or little, makes no difference to me; I’m not a fan. My mind had already set its navigation course toward home. My timetable was in place. I was comfortable with it all so why modify anything? After all, if we got home as planned there were things we could get done. But, that little voice inside my head (who I often try to mute) urged me to say, “yes” to veering off the beaten path and taking an unexpected jaunt. And I’m so thankful we did!

The tires crunched as we turned onto the gravely, leaf covered road and for a moment I just wanted to turn around but… I soon discovered that someplace between where we’d been and where we were going, beauty, peace, and joy awaited. Oh, what I might have missed! Bright, fall leaves dancing against the backdrop of a crystal-blue sky, the relaxing song of the gently flowing river, and crisp air tempered by the afternoon sunshine all would have missed had I chosen to stick to my own agenda. Not to mention, the gift of sharing God’s beauty and extra time with one another! And to think I almost missed it all.

The idea of sticking to our own agendas despite hearing a voice that says otherwise isn’t a new one. Matthew tells us in chapter 9, verses 57-62 about some men who are called to follow Jesus but whose minds were set on their own course and did not want to deviate from it. Oh, they had good reasons for not wanting to change directions, but, what would they miss as a result? Verse 10:16 answers that question. Matthew reports that those who turned onto the rough road of being a disciple, “returned with joy.”

Another person who I can relate to is Martha. Like me, she was very good at seeing all that needed to to get done instead of stopping to listen.

“Her sister, Mary, went and sat at Jesus’ feet, listening to Him teach. meanwhile Martha was anxious about all the hospitality arrangements.
Martha: Lord, why don’t You care that my sister is leaving me to do all the work by myself? Tell her to get over here and help me.
Jesus: Oh Martha, Martha, you are so anxious and concerned about a million details, but really, only one thing matters. Mary has chosen that one thing, and I won’t take it away from her.”
Luke 10:39-41 (The Voice)

A call to volunteer. A plea for prayer. A little voice asking for a story to be read. An offer to attend church on Sunday morning.  An invitation to spend time with those we love. A request to mentor a young person. A prompting to witness to others. How many times have I, have we, silenced Jesus’ voice and missed out as He’s called us to take a “jaunt” with Him because of a “million little details” we think are important? Here’s what I’m reminded, someplace between where we’ve been and where we’re going, there are opportunities for finding beauty, peace, and joy when we say, “yes” instead. Let’s not let our calendars, watches, or our own plans keep us on the beaten path, rather, let’s turn onto the One Way, the Only Way that really matters. There’s no doubt we‘ll be grateful we did!

Day 6/31: Crave

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“Keep watch and pray, so that you will not give in to temptation. For the spirit is willing, but the body is weak!” Matthew 26:41 (NLT)

Day 6: Crave

If I were to tell you some things that I’ve been known to crave the list would include: Lay’s potato chips, Dunkin Donuts Iced Coffee Mocha, pumpkin pie, time alone, being with my grandsons, and a water view to name a few. There was one time though, that my craving got way out of control.

Many years ago my husband received a large container of chocolate covered almonds as a business gift.  As soon as I saw them I knew I was in trouble and so with all the strength I could muster I suggested that he hide them somewhere I was sure not to find them, otherwise I knew I would eat every single one of those delectable treats. And so he did as I asked.

The next morning once I was alone, I sat drinking my coffee when something came over me. I literally could smell those chocolate covered almonds! Soon they were all I could think about and the frantic search ensued. I was like a bloodhound on a recovery mission. Sniff! Every cupboard was opened. Sniff, sniff! Closets were rummaged through. Sniff, sniff, sniff! Dust bunnies under the beds were displaced as my arm reached as far under as possible. The longer I searched the more I desired what I couldn’t have and in the process, turned my whole house upside-down trying to satisfy my yearning. This is a perfect example of what James warns us about:

“Temptation comes from our own desires, which entice us and drag us away..”
James 1:14 (NLT)

The truth is, chocolate covered almonds aren’t the only craving that’s lured me with a scent of satisfaction. The world offers so much that promises to meet our longings, and when we catch a tempting whiff we’re drawn to seek them out. Maybe you know exactly what I mean. Whether it’s a desire for attention, companionship, escape, comfort, power, or anything we crave, our frantic pursuit of it can drag us away from what we know is best and turn our whole world upside-down. That’s exactly why Jesus taught us to pray, “lead us not into temptation.” (Matthew 6;13)

So what are we very human “bloodhounds” to do? Follow our “knows.” That is, Who we know, and what we know:

“So then, since we have a great High Priest who has entered heaven, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to what we believe. This High Priest of ours understands our weaknesses, for he faced all of the same testings we do, yet he did not sin. So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it most.” Hebrews 2:14-16 (NLT)