Author Archives: Cindy

About Cindy

I am a city girl turned country girl. I moved to the country for my first teaching job and 32 years later I am still here. My husband and I are blessed to have a son and a daughter and son-in-law AND we have two "granddogs" who we love to spoil.

Words

“May my words and my thoughts be acceptable to you, O LORD, my refuge and my redeemer.” Psalm 19:14 (GNT)

Words

By looking at this picture you may think our middle grandson is the strong, silent type. You would be wrong. This sword carrying soul is a young man of many words! Listening to him tell you something is a journey with many twists and turns. There are detours and switchbacks. Sentence upon sentence link together like cars on a long, slow moving train. Don’t get me wrong, I will happily sit and enjoy listening to him for as long as he wants me to, the thing is though, what he originally begins to tell me can sometimes get off track in the midst of all those words.

I don’t know about you, but my grandson isn’t alone. Especially when I’m nervous, I can find myself talking much more than is really necessary too AND, my purpose can wind up being lost. Think about it; sometimes fewer words can have a greater impact:

Stop! Help! Wrong Way. Ouch! I love you.

See what I mean? It doesn’t always take a long succession of thoughts to make our point.

If you’re like me, there are times we can let being short on words keep us from saying anything at all. We believe that we must have all the right things to say and a lot to contribute before we can initiate or join a conversation. I find this especially true when in the presence of someone grieving, asked to pray aloud (sometimes even silently), or if offered the opportunity to witness to others. For some reason we can think that quantity is most important. But, like my knight in plastic armor, what we intend to say can also get easily derailed in all our own extra words.

I’m speaking to myself as I type this tonight; we can’t let fear of saying the wrong thing, not being sure of what to say, or having enough to say, keep us from comforting, uplifting, praying for, and especially witnessing to those around us. Maybe we need this reminder too. The WORD teaches us powerful things in few words too:.

“Jesus wept.” “Love never fails.” “It is finished.” “You are forgiven.” “Be still and know.

And you know? As I ponder this a little more, It’s occurred to me that some of those who’ve influenced my life the most, actually did so with……….no words at all. 

“My children, our love should not be just words and talk; it must be true love, which shows itself in action.” 1 John 3:18 (GNT)

Pattern ~ Five Minute Friday

“But now let me show you a way of life that is best of all.” 1 Corinthians 12:31b (NLT)

Living in the Crevices

It was something I’d never seen before. As I watched the birds out my window I noticed a Downy Woodpecker glide toward the porch. Carefully approaching to get a better look at what was going on, I observed the normally shy guy jabbing his beak into the cracks of our stonework. I have no idea what he was doing. My best guess is collecting bugs that had been trapped by spiderwebs in those crevices during the summer. But why, when there were three feeders, suet, and a cylinder made completely of nuts, fruit, and seeds, a literal bird buffet right there, was he hanging out where he didn’t belong? It still remains a mystery.

As I continued to watch this snow drenched, black and white bird and his unusual behavior a thought came to mind (as the Holy Spirit often likes to send me) we too, can exhibit similar actions. How often do we perch in life’s “cracks” instead of partaking of the abundance God provides for us?

I don’t know about you, but when I find myself weather-worn from the storms that come my way, I cling to the comfortable patterns of pecking away at worry, fear, anxiety, and all those things that I find trapped in my mind. So why, when I know the Bible tells us over and over that’s not where we belong, do I settle for less when something so much better, the best really, is right there waiting for me? Believe me, it remains a mystery that I hope to solve sooner rather than later.

As I ponder this, my thoughts have turned to the Samaritan woman at the well. (John 4:1-26) Remember? She was living a life not doing as she should either and Jesus comes to her and offers her something better.

“Jesus replied, ‘If you only knew the gift God has for you and who you are speaking to, you would ask me, and I would give you living water.’” John 4:10 (NLT)

“If you only knew.” As I mentioned above, I DO know., so why do I often find myself stuck dangling in my meager attempts to satisfy my own needs? I forget Jesus’ next words, maybe you do too: if you would ask Me, I would give.

God, through Jesus, has spread out before us an array for our taking. Love, comfort, wisdom, strength, peace, guidance, forgiveness, and so much more, a literal Spiritual smorgasbord awaits when we seek Him.

There’s no doubt that living in the “crevices” is not the pattern I want my life to follow. I’m guessing you don’t want that either. We also can be sure that God’s best is more than anything we could ever imagine or have seen before. Paul puts it like this:

“I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will empower you with inner strength through his Spirit. Then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him. Your roots will grow down into God’s love and keep you strong. And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is. May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God.”
Ephesians 3:16-19 (NLT)

May this prayer be our prayer as we live life patterned after Christ’s love, seeking the only One who can fill those chasms, freeing us “through His mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.” Ephesians 3:29 (NLT)

Amen!

So happy to be back joining with others at http://www.fiveminutefriday.com for the first prompt of 2024. It’s not too late for you to write with us too!

 

Day 31/31: Perseverance

Run the race. Keep the pace. Eyes on Jesus

Day 31: Perseverance #writetogether31days

There’s a young woman I know who has set a goal for herself. She’s done what it takes to be prepared, but to reach the bar she’s set for herself, she must pass several tests. She studies, applies what she’s learned, drives the miles to get to the test site, sits through the exam and then anxiously waits. Sometimes the news is worth celebrating and other times she learns that she was just a few points short and must try again. 

As I sit here the ponderer I am, and look back over what I’ve written during these 31 days, I realize it is the very same for me. I know who I want to become, but to get there also requires being tested. Such is the life of a Christian. 

I’ve done what it takes to be prepared in accepting Christ as my Savior. Studying the Word and applying it to my life helps me “practice what I preach,” to be ready to go that extra mile, and  when I’m anxiously waiting in the midst of those tests and trials, to endure. Sometimes it seems as if I’m gaining in my quest for greater faith and at other times, it’s clear I’m coming up short. Feeling like I take one step forward then two steps back can be quite discouraging.  Maybe you can relate.

“Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.”
James 1:12 (NIV)

“Consider it all joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.”
James 1:3-4 (NIV)

I know it can be discouraging for my young friend too, but the thing I so admire about her is, she does try again, and again if necessary. She perseveres and studies, practices, drives the miles, braves the testing and waiting all over again to finish what she’s started. Without knowing it, she inspires me to do the same. 

I pray for her, and myself, and for you too, that as we face those things that test us, we don’t give up. As Hebrews 12 tells us, “let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith.” May we not grow weary or lose heart, but try again, and again if necessary. “Blessed is the one who perseveres.” Yes, these 31 days (and many more) are teaching me: such is the life of a Christian. And even when it doesn’t feel like it, that’s news worth celebrating!

Day 30/31: Door

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John 16:33

Day 30: Door #writetogether31days

For over 100 years these doors had been open for anyone, anytime, to come and go as they needed to. It’s how church is meant to be. However, you and I know the world has changed and unfortunately, due to circumstances beyond our control, we’ve recently had to begin locking them. It shouldn’t be this way. Keeping people out feels unnatural, uncomfortable even; but protecting and preserving what’s inside is important, too.

The same thing can happen to us, I think. We are God’s living church out in our ever-changing world. Our hearts were designed to be open to anyone, showing love anytime, welcoming others to come or being ready to go whenever it’s needed. But, due to circumstances beyond our control, we can feel a necessity to shut ourselves up tightly, attempting to keep others out. (Ask me how I know.) It doesn’t feel right. We know that it’s not how we’re supposed to be, but protecting and preserving what’s inside us seems vital, too.

Our values are questioned. Slam! Our beliefs ridiculed. Latched. Our well-being threatened. Locked.

I struggle, maybe you do too, with how we, as temples of God can stand secure in the midst of destructive words, thieves of peace, and vandals of our faith. How can we unbar our discouragement, uncertainty, and fears to be the witnesses, open and welcoming that we’re each meant to be?

There’s no doubt that when Jesus sent the disciples out He knew that they’d face tribulation. Yet, He still told them to go. He’s sending us out into the world as well and of course, we know challenges will try to “break in” and attempt to take away from what we’re doing. But, throughout His ministry, Jesus taught those fishers of men all they needed to be successful. I believe He’s in the process of doing that with me, too. Maybe you can also sense Him instructing you. I’m afraid I’m still a work in progress and have more questions than answers, but I do know one thing for sure:

Jesus is the Key!

“I do this in order that they may be filled with courage and may be drawn together in love, and so have the full wealth of assurance which true understanding brings. In this way they will know God’s secret, which is Christ himself. He is the key that opens all the hidden treasures of God’s wisdom and knowledge.”
Colossians 2:2-3 (GNT)

 

Day 27/31: Strive

“But God has shown us how much he loves us-it was while we were still sinners that Christ died for us.” Romans 5:8 (GNT)

Day 27: Strive #writetogether31days #fiveminutefriday

Looking back on most of my life, if you’d ask what I did best, my answer would quickly be “strive.” Trying hard somehow became as natural for me as breathing. But there’s more…I didn’t just want to be the best student, daughter,  teacher, wife, mother, church member, etc. I wanted to be the perfect one. I couldn’t stand the thought of making a mistake. Well, we all know how well that’s worked out.

Somehow I thought that if I put in the time, followed the rules, checked off the lists, did all the things, my working hard would result in finally feeling successful, accepted, and worthy of love. The harder I tried, the more it seemed I messed up, and then, I tried even harder. It. Was. Exhausting! Have you been there?

This way of thinking even spilled over into my Christian life and so, I made every effort to be the the “good girl” I determined I needed to be.  The thought of letting God down could overwhelm me and in turn I filled my already full schedule with more to-do’s to satisfy what I believed He expected of me. But like Paul in Romans 7:15, I did not understand myself because what I wanted to do I did not do, but what I hated to do, I did. Pursuing perfection was doing me in!

“For it is by God’s grace that you have been saved through faith. It is not the result of your own efforts, but God’s gift, so that no one can boast about it.”
Ephesians 2:8-9 (GNT)

The truth is, I always knew it was impossible to be perfect (although it didn’t stop me from trying), but what a relief it was to learn the real Truth: that I didn’t need to be perfect at all. It was as if I heard God saying, “Cindy, stop trying so hard.”

It’s difficult for us humans to accept that it isn’t all about us. (I have to remind myself more often than I’d like.) But, no matter what wonderful things we accomplish, how intelligent, generous, kind we are, how many rules we follow, or how much we love others, the reality is, we can never be good enough, do enough, or be enough to get to Heaven. Jesus is the only Way. And my friends, He is all we should strive after; because as it can only be, one day, through Him we’ll find that perfection forevermore. 

“Christ, however, offered one sacrifice for sins, an offering that is effective forever, and then he sat down at the right side of God. With one sacrifice, then, he has made perfect forever those who are purified from sin.”
Hebrews 10:12,14 (GNT)

Day 26/31: Home

“we have a house in heaven, an eternal body made for us by God himself and not by human hands.” 2 Corinthians 5:1b (NLT)

Day 26: Home #writetogether31days

This is one of my favorite places. It’s the halfway point between my house and my mom’s so I stay here often. It’s kinda funny though, when I check in on my way up, the clerk will ask where I’m headed. So, I say, “Home to Michigan.” But then, when I’m traveling back and she asks, I reply, “Home to West Virginia.”

Born in Michigan, it is also where I spent my teenage years and went to college. I still have family and friends there who I visit whenever I can. I moved to West Virginia for my first teaching job. That was 41 years ago. I have family and friends here who I do everyday life with. 

So where is home? Is it where we’re from? Or, is it where we are?

I’ve lived in several homes in my lifetime. There are treasured memories, assorted stories, and achieved milestones attached to each one. I’ve loved them all and yet, this subtle feeling of being a little out of place, a bit of discontent, a longing for something else has always been present. You too? I’ve learned and I sometimes still need to be reminded that as Christians, we’re supposed to feel this way because the truth is, for us, Home is where we’re going.

“For this world is not our permanent home; we are looking forward to a home yet to come.”
Hebrews 13:14 (NLT)

“But we are citizens of heaven, where the Lord Jesus Christ lives. And we are eagerly waiting for him to return as our Savior.”
Philippians 3:20 (NLT)

“Yes, we are fully confident, and we would rather be away from these earthly bodies, for then we will be at home with the Lord.”
2 Corinthians 5:8 (NLT)

I don’t know about you, but there are days that I stand and look up to Heaven saying, “Come, Lord Jesus, come!” And of course, there are times when I plead for just a bit longer here on this earth. We don’t know when Jesus will return. We don’t need to, but we are supposed to be ready for the move. 

“Don’t let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, and trust also in me. There is more than enough room in my Father’s home. If this were not so, would I have told you that I am going to prepare a place for you? When everything is ready, I will come and get you, so that you will always be with me where I am.”
John 14:1-3 (NLT)

Where is home? Here in the world, it’s with the ones we love, but one day we will be Home with the One who loves us into eternity. So, maybe the next time someone asks me where I’m headed I’ll smile and say, “Home to Heaven.” What a day of rejoicing that will be!

Day 25/31: Discover

“If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me.” Jeremiah 29:13 (NLT)

Day 25: Discover #writetogether31days

Feeding people makes me happy and this is my most recent new offering. Cooking and baking are definitely my love language. Because of that, I really enjoy discovering new recipes to prepare and share. There are certain things I look for though, for example, number of ingredients. The more one requires, the less likely I am to try it. Plus, those ingredients must also be things I have on hand or at least am familiar with. Simple directions are also a must. No complicated, many steps, takes a long time dish for me. When all these things come together, I know it’s a recipe worth keeping.

You’d think that if I use these things to find the perfect recipe, I’d do the same when seeking Perfect Jesus. The truth is however, that I often do the exact opposite. There are times when I believe that the “ingredients” that go into making me, me, just aren’t sufficient, that more are required. Plus, they’re too bland, not unusual or stand out as they should. The voice inside my head, I’m guessing you might know the one I mean, tells my heart I’m not smart enough, kind enough, generous enough, good enough, or any other “enough.”

Sometimes I think I must follow a complex set of steps like: praying the “right way,” reading my Bible more, taking on more responsibility at church, you get the picture. Creating a long list of to-do’s equals busyness which in my little mind will make me more pleasing to Him.

“Her sister, Mary, sat at the Lord’s feet, listening to what he taught. But Martha was distracted by the big dinner she was preparing. She came to Jesus and said, ‘Lord, doesn’t it seem unfair to you that my sister just sits here while I do all the work? Tell her to come and help me.’ But the Lord said to her, ‘My dear Martha, you are worried and upset over all these details! There is only one thing worth being concerned about. Mary has discovered it, and it will not be taken away from her.’” Luke 10:39-42 (NLT)

Gosh, I need this reminder.  I wonder if you might too. Feeding people is what Jesus is all about. So, He’s telling Martha, and us, that less is more. Worrying about too many details keeps us from creating and enjoying something special with Him.

Few, familiar, simple. Those are what I look for when searching for and keeping recipes. When we find ourselves at Jesus’ feet like Mary was, we discover it is the same: few concerns (One really), a familiarity to savor, and love given simply and lavishly. This recipe for Life is always and forever worth seeking, keeping, and sharing!

Day 21: Forget

 

 

“I remember the days of long ago; I meditate on all your works and consider what your hands have done.” Psalm 143:

Day 21: Forget #writetogether31days

Remember Not to Forget

I don’t want to forget
You created all things
And surround us with beauty
Oh, the joy that it brings

I don’t want to forget
The stable, the star
The wisemen who traveled
To You from afar

I don’t want to forget
The miracles, Your Word
The lives that are changed
Because they have heard

I don’t want to forget
The whips, the thorn
All You endured
The veil that was torn

I don’t want to forget
That bloodstained tree
The sins that You bore
Because You love me

I don’t want to forget
Each day is a gift
To You alone
My praises I lift

I don’t want to forget
You’ve prepared us a place
And one glorious day
We’ll meet face to face!

“I will remember the deeds of the LORD; yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago. I will consider all your works and meditate on all your mighty deeds.”
Psalm 77:11-12

Day 20: Clarify

Day 20: Clarify #writetogether31days
Five Minute Friday

Have you ever wished that God would just tell you what to do in a voice you could understand? Recently I was working in my comforting, dimly lit church sanctuary. It’s one of my favorite spots to be in and a place of peace for me, but this particular day I was really wrestling with a decision weighing on my heart. Knowing what God wanted me to do wasn’t clear and going back and forth in my mind between both options just seemed to confuse me even more.
I. Needed. Things. Clarified!

And so, I sat down in “my pew,” looked up at the large painting of Jesus’ face that many small churches have hanging over the pulpit, and said aloud, “Would You please just turn Your head to look at me and tell me what You’d have me do?” (I’ve told you before that I’m a wacky one!) Then, I stared into those kind, painted eyes and waited. I’m guessing you won’t be surprised to learn that our Jesus painting did not speak to me. My husband said it was probably a good thing because if Jesus had done as I asked, I’d have probably keeled over right then and there. And so after a bit, I got up and went back to the tasks I had yet to complete. But, this is NOT the end of the story!

My struggle was between going to see a person who over the past 52 years has hurt me many times and despite my attempts at staying connected chose over and over not to be involved in my life and now was asking to see me or not going at all which is what “I” was leaning toward. Believe it or not, it’s only been in the last couple of years that I’ve finally made peace with the whole sad, heartbreaking situation and I have been comfortable with the thought of not ever seeing him again. That person is my dad.

Maybe you can see my dilemma. I wanted to follow God’s command to honor my father even though he’s only been father in blood and name, not relationship. I also wanted to support my two younger sisters who’d already decided they were going to make the trip. On the other hand, I didn’t want to step back into the unhealthy dynamic that’s been my life with him, plus I had many other reasons for me not to go as well, of which I presented each of (passionately I might add) to God.

Ask for clarity and you get it #1…Each time I added a reason not to go, a reoccurring thought kept coming to my mind: “It’s not all about you.” (I must admit I’m not a fan of this, haha.)

Ask for clarity and you get it #2…During this same time I was doing a ladies’ Bible study and during our weekly get-together after my “talk with the painting,” the author, Kelly Minter spoke through her DVD in depth about obedience and love for God. She said, “Obedience is built on sacrifice.” (again, not a fan!)  And, “Our desires for what we want need to become less than our desire to obey God.” AND, “Obedience is built on what God wants to give us.” (I was beginning to get the message whether I really truly wanted it or not.)

Ask for clarity and you get it #3…Just a few days later in the same study I came to a “personal response” question. Are you ready? (I wasn’t) This is what it asked: “Who do you need to see face to face? Ask the Holy Spirit to bring someone to mind who needs you or whom you may need. IT MAY REQUIRE AIRFARE.

Jesus may not have turned his painted head toward me when I asked, but He sure has spoken!  I still don’t want to go, but you know what? I have such a peace about it being the right thing that I’ve decided to make the trip anyway. 

Oh, one more thing. Even after knowing that I was being led to go, me being me decided to follow Gideon’s lead and test the Answer I received.  Gideon used a fleece, asking for it to be dry when everything else was wet and then for it to be wet when everything else was dry. (Judges 6:36-40) I used plane flights and seats to prove it to myself to be true. So, I decided if there was a flight that I could take that wouldn’t require me to spend an extra night at the airport (rural living) on both ends AND I could have an aisle seat on all the planes, then I’d know I was really meant to go.

Ask for clarity and you get it #4 (even when you test God)-Mid-morning flights each way are booked and aisle seats chosen on all of them. 

“If you need wisdom, ask our generous God, and he will give it to you. He will not rebuke you for asking.
James 1:5 (NLT)

“Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.”
Philippians 4:6-7 (NLT)

For those of you who have made it this far I thank you for hanging with me in this long story I never really intended to share. I guess what I want to leave you with is this, first, know (speaking to myself, too) that even when it doesn’t feel like it, we will hear the voice of God. Maybe not through a speaking painting obviously, but in the many different ways He uses to help us understand. We simply need to always be watching and listening. 

And finally, be ready. Because with God:

Ask for clarity and you get it!

Trust in the LORD with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.
Proverbs 3:5-6 (NLT)

Day 18/31: Hands

“And he placed his hands on their heads and blessed them before he left.” Matthew 19:15 (NLT)

Day 18: Hands #writetogether31days

She very delicately held the small, red spheres in her petite hands.  One by one she examined them carefully, rolling them gently between her thumb and finger. Then, as if they were treasured friends, she softly laid each one individually on the bottom of the bucket. 

Children have a special way of seeing the world. That was one of my favorite parts of teaching and of this time spent in the vines. Picking cherry tomatoes with my young grand-niece was a gift and seeing them through her eyes opened mine.

As I stood watching that sweet girl’s deliberate, unhurried way, I thought about how I’d have done the picking. Without really looking at them, I would have plucked those little things quickly off their stems, dropped them carelessly in the bucket, and moved on quickly to get the job done. Is that how you would have done it too?

As He often does, God prompted me to ponder something important through those curious, attentive, little hands: “What am I missing?” 

“One day some parents brought their children to Jesus so he could lay his hands on them and pray for them. But the disciples scolded the parents for bothering him. But Jesus said, ‘Let the children come to me. Don’t stop them! For the Kingdom of Heaven belongs to those who are like these children.’ ”
Matthew 19:13-14 (NLT)

Goodness, I can relate to those disciples! Can’t you just see them? Without really looking at those around them, they’d been picking their way through the crowd all day, moving people through the line to see Jesus. Then these parents show up with their children and the disciples just want to quickly finish up so, they try to send them all away. What were they missing? 

“About that time the disciples came to Jesus and asked, ‘Who is greatest in the Kingdom of Heaven?’ Jesus called a little child to him and put the child among them. Then he said, ‘I tell you the truth, unless you turn from your sins and become like little children, you will never get into the Kingdom of Heaven.’”
Matthew 18:2-4 (NLT)

Just as God did with me, He was using a child to open the disciples eyes so they could really see and He wants the same for you, too. “Those who are like these children.” “Become like little children.” What are we missing?

Somehow when it’s been a minute since we were children ourselves, we tend to forget what it was like. Do you see what we, like the disciples can miss? I think this is what Jesus is teaching us. Lay all our adult stuff aside and simply believe. Then we will see things through the eyes of a child of God, loving others, looking for the joy, leading with a giving heart, and reveling in all the wonder of small, everyday things….like cherry tomatoes delicately held in our hands.