A new adventure awaits me. There’s nothing God can’t do… But when I take a leap of faith, God will see me through.
It is an absolutely beautiful Sunday here in West Virginia! Time sure has flown by since my last post. It’s an extremely busy time of year at school as we try to wind everything up and fit everything in. The last day for students is only seven days away and so that means that the end of my teaching career is officially over in nine days. I have been struggling with this idea of retirement, of late. Feelings of sadness and insecurity have been seeping into my soul. Sadness because I really do love teaching children and for 32 years being a teacher has been my identity. Insecurity because I DO NOT LIKE CHANGE!!!! I know how silly all this sounds but I figured you should know how wacky I really am! I continue to remind myself that I am blessed beyond measure to be at a place where I can retire and that it IS time for me to move on. During my quiet time this morning it became clear to me that this is an opportunity to trust and have faith. Trust that I am on the right path and faith that God has a new plan for my life.
I don’t know about you, but sometimes I wish there was a magic wand that I could wave and suddenly I’d have all the faith and confidence I will ever need. Unfortunately, that’s not how it works. I am learning that it is a process….the proverbial two steps forward, one step back. It drives me crazy! As a person who is a perfectionist- people pleaser, this process isn’t easy. I want to get it right and and get it right now! Thank goodness God and the people in my life are patient and don’t give up on me!
Walt Disney said, “Without change, there would be no butterflies”. I am trying to take this to heart and embrace what the future holds for me. Will I move through it perfectly? No. Will my faith never waiver? No. But, I am going to step onto this new path trusting that I won’t be traveling alone and that an exciting adventure awaits! I hope you will come along with me as I begin this new journey, but I warn you, it may take some patience!
be with the students, your colleagues, the winding up of this road, the other will appear under your feet in the perfect time, it is all enfolded with in you.. like i tell my girls, your 2nd set of teeth knew exactly when to arrive.. all is well. xo